Moving Forward

It's been 2 1/2 months now since the final test results, and we are just trying to move forward. And accomplishing it, even though it's been extremely hard. I've been situationally depressed, continued therapy, and accepted that realistically our little family will most likely not include having children.

This is devastating, but we need to move forward. “Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” ~ C. S. Lewis.

Every ounce of my energy, mentally and physically has been focused on trying to have children for the past 3 years, and I need to try to be happy with the life I have. It's so hard to even express my feelings on this to everyone who has supported me on this journey. A dear friend who has dealt with similar sent me this article, so if you want to get a glimpse of how I feel, you can read this: Motherhood Mondays: What if you can't have a baby?

I never intended for this blog to be about our infertility issues. I always wanted to blog "just because" I enjoy it and want to share my life experiences with my friends and family. I am so happy that it was a vehicle to share the seriousness we were going through during IVF treatments, but going forward it will be about other things that are keeping me going every day.

To help, I am participating in "#100HappyDays" - check it out. If you want to follow me, I am posting my pics on Instagram - @pilarbower.

In general, here is what is making me happy right now:

• Puzzle (always...)
• Balcony Time
• Andy ran his first half marathon, rocked it, and has a mohawk!
• Green Bowls from Myxologie 
• Volunteering for Girls Inc. of San Diego County 
• Handybook  
• Southern Charm